...Let the King of my heart.
Be the mountain where I run.
The fountain I drink from
Oh, He is my song.
Let the King of my heart.
Be the shadow where I hide.
The ransom for my life
Oh, He is my song.
As you can see, I'm home now. And as my husband puts it, I am more spiritual now than I have ever been. All of my posts speak truth. I have no reason to lie. I have lost nearly everything, but Jesus spared me my life and is guiding me through the trials. I know that I have had some not so friendly posts about my family back home. You see, I have been going off of doctor's notes and these are all things they talk about THAT'S IN MY MEDICAL CHART FOREVER.
I do not wish anything ill on my family. It's in the most caring of hearts that I wish them all good things. I was just the validation tool. I would get the "hey Jessie, I got over 100 likes and 100 comments and 25 shares on this post about you!" All the while I am laying in a hospital bed. I just gave a thumbs up because I couldn't speak yet.
When I did start this blog, I wrote in the beginning, everything the doctors wrote about. Even the not so pleasant things about my family. I would hit 'publish' then immediately get a text saying to take out any parts about my family because they didn't hold my family in the best light.
I'm not speaking ill of my family. I'm speaking truth. There's a HUGE difference.
I am forever grateful they were there for me. That they hit 'pause' on their lives to ensure mine would continue on. For anyone reading this for guidance, I beg of you, do not hit 'period' on the life of your loved one. Do not walk out on them. Do not speak ill of them in the small-town hair salon. Do not post awful things about them on social media with their picture attached. Do not come to their new home state just to testify AGAINST them.
They truly need you more than anything. They need to be surrounded by love and complete positivity. They need an atmosphere where they can find peace, read, meditate. They need you to help them learn how to do the things they used to do, but in a safe manner. They have been through something traumatic enough. Please do NOT add to it! Do NOT add to their sorrow or to their distrust in others. Having a traumatic brain injury is lifetime. Having PTSD is hopefully not lifetime. But we will see!
What seems to be impossible to us in this life, is 100% possible WITH God. I have truly leaned on Him throughout this. He is why I am still here and talking to you all now. The look of care and concern on Jesus' face before I was sent back here, it was absolutely pure love. I know what His love feels like. I mean, I've seen it! Hopefully YOU know what it FEELS like. I talk to God every single day Sometimes I plead with Him. It's okay to be like Martha and beg and demand things of Him. Trust that He already knows what is in your heart and mind. I even read His truth every day. His book is completely true, and you can always get a little nugget of wisdom out of each book.
If you would like to speak about God with me, I am 100% here for that. I will actually be starting a podcast soon to speak on God's truth and what He has done for my life.
He is absolutely the King of my heart. If you ever need to accept Jesus into your life and worship God, I have a wonderful Pastor I would love to direct you to. Please just let me know.
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