God is taking my shattered heart and remaking me in His image, for His goodness.
"I grabbed my chest while tears slipped down my cheeks in an unending stream. The pain in my heart wasn't physical. But the stabbing emotional hurt was so intense I could hardly breathe. My hands were shaking. My eyes were wide with fear. My mouth felt paralyzed. My life had gone from feeling full and whole to being obliterated beyond recognition. I'd been hurt plenty of times in my life. But nothing like this." It's Not Supposed to Be This Way by Lysa TerKeurst.
Maybe you have felt this kind of pain. Maybe you're someone who hasn't. But I am personally going through this obliteration. Yea, someone with TBI who was in a coma and almost died is going through this.
But this is what people I grew up with is doing to me. They are hurting me beyond recognition. Why? I don't know why and I am certainly not going to assume. Assumptions are dangerous. Just like when Eve assumed that if she touched the fruit on the tree, she would die. But she didn't. We all make choices, that is what free will is all about. The freedom to make whatever decisions you'd like. You just need to be ready for the consequences , good or bad.
God isn't a God of control. He's a beautiful sculptor and writer. He's just trying to fine tune our stories! So if you're going through a messy season, He is in the process of remaking you. Trust Him. Even if it doesn't make sense to you.
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